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I started my calorie counting today. It went well until I went to a work outting tonight. I was relatively hungry when I got there, and they bring chips and salsa. I dug into those while we waited for other people to arrive. Then the appetizers came and seeing as they were my dinner for the night I ate one of everything (about 4 appetizers) and 2 of other things.

All in all I guess I had 2 chicken quesedillas with guacomole, sour cream and salsa, 2 wings (one with ranch), some nachos, calamarie plus the chips and salsa I had previously. I did not however have an alcoholic beverage which probably saved me a ton of calories.

I’m aiming for 1350 calories a day, when I went to the outting I was around 915. I’m not sure how many I’ve gone over, I hope it wasn’t too much. Tomorrow I don’t have anything after work so I should be able to stick to my calorie count.

I’m off to work out.

P.S. Thank you to everyone for all the nice comments!

So I have a bit of an obession with my weight and how my body looks. I’m so obessesed I sometimes allow these things to affect my mood and behavior for the day.

Today at work I was showing some people a picture (from about a year ago) of when i had longer hair. Everybody says it looks nothing like me. There are many factors that may go into this.

My hair is shorter.

My hair is lighter now.

I was wearing a baseball hat in the picture.

All these are possible. All I could focus on is that my face may (or may not, but I’m convinced it does) look a little heavier. From a year ago when that picture was taken I’ve probably only gained 5-7 pounds, I had already gained a little weight when the picture was taken.

I wish i wasn’t so obessesive and I also wish i could lose some weight so I feel like I am making progress and have a bit more motivation.

I am going to start counting calories to see if I can jumpstart some weight loss. My only worry with counting calories is, it isn’t something I can keep up for the rest of my life and I don’t want to put the weight back on once I stop counting.

Any opinions on this? Also any good ideas for workout motivation? I have some trouble with that. Hope everyone is having a good day and are feeling good about themselves!

So last thursday was my first way in. And surprise, surprise I didnt’ reach my mini goal, which was to lose only two pounds. I am just so frustrated. I don’t eat badly and I have really been upping my workouts and nothing seems to help.

I just want to lose ten pounds, why is this so hard? I’ve been trying to lose them for the past six months. I don’t understand why nothing is working.

I’m going to try to stick with it but its hard when you are working hard and seeing no results. blah.

So I have joined this blogging community in an effort to lose some weight. (i guess that is what everyone joins for, haha)

Anyway, here’s my story. In high school i was thin and athletic. I could eat anything I wanted and I never gained weight. This is probably due to the fact that I was pretty active. Playing soccer year round. I never thought about actual working out or watching what i ate.

I left for college and during my freshmen year gained around 15-20 pounds. This is becasue I kept up with my routine of eating whatever I wanted, the only problem was I wasn’t nearly as active as I was in high school.

Each year of school I continued gaining weight until I was up 45 pounds from high school. I fet horrible aobut myself.
Finally, my senior year of college (my first senior year, hahaha) I decided to lose the weight. I began the south beach diet. throughout the year I dropped thirty pounds. I was feeling pretty good about myself. I started an internship my second senior year and ended up getting mono. This is really how I lost my last 10 pounds to get to a weight of 120 lbs.

I kept that weight off for 2 years. I started another internship at the end of these two years. It was a 1.5 hour drive from my house. 2 hours if there was traffic, which there usually was. I slowly watched my weight creep up from sitting in the car for up to four hours a day, to not watching what I ate. Within a year i was up 10 pounds.

I’m really trying to lose them but they are not coming off and it is really frustrating me. I watch what I eat without being obsessvie and I work out. Granted I could be on a more regular schedule for working out. My problem is motivation.

My goal is to lose my ten pounds by the end of October which I’m hoping this is an attainable goal.

For this week, I am going to work out 4 days and hopefully lose 2 pounds.

Hope I didn’t bore you guys, I guess I had a lot to say.